Sum Total Appreciation

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Typically I don’t pay much attention to my blog statistics.  Mostly because I recognized long ago that the ‘hits’ I get have nothing to do with the quality of interactions that occur here in my little slice of cyberspace, but also because I find WordPress’s numbers to be (a) cumbersome, and (b) inaccurate.

RE: (b) ~ Anyone who reads posts via email is not counted as a viewer, and any viewer who scrolls through the home page and/or archives without clicking on the permalinks of the posts they view aren’t counted either.  (If you are a blogger and didn’t already know that, you do now.  See?  Full of helpful information, am I.)  So what good does it really do me to be told that 11 people viewed this post?  Simple answer:  NONE.

So for those reasons (and a few others, like:  I lack the appropriate level of self absorption  -and-  I have too short of an attention span), I normally glance over the year-end stats firework show that WordPress throws my way and then forget all about it.  I especially never post about my stats. Continue reading →

Promises in the Dark

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“Mine,” she said, her lips soft against his neck, her breath warm, her breasts warmer yet against his back, as she wrapped her body – big spoon style, pressed against him skin to skin – around his.

“Mine,” he said, his voice sated and sleepy, his body relaxing into her curves as he reached behind him, pulling her in closer.

“Yes,” she whispered.

A prayer, a promise.

He nodded gently as he began to drift.

Yes.

Mine.

I am miserable. And you can too!

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Let’s consider this the equivalent of a drunk text.  Except I’m sick, not drunk.  And this is not a text, it’s a tapped-out-on-my-dumbfone (no, my phone is NOT smart, not.at.all) blog entry.

You know that feeling when every sphincter muscle in your body Continue reading →

As Christmas night descends…

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I am drawn to the window, contemplative but content, and my physical reflection – barely visible in the glass at this hour – is an elusive apparition, not unlike the reflections inside my mind; nebulous thoughts shine in glimmering reverse shadows.  Light against dark.  The cloud-heavy sky is streaked with blue shimmering light this evening, a sparse and glowing contrast to the gray.

Silver linings.

They are always there, I think to myself, you only have to know where, and how, to look.

It is so easy to get tangled in the negatives.  To get caught up in the have-nots and the cannots, the things that have gone wrong, the losses and the hurts.  To see the clouds, dark and portentious, instead of the light that shines through them.

But a light always shines through.

Always.

Silver linings. They are always there.  You just have to be willing to see them.

May your eyes be open, this Christmas day  and every day, that you may see your own silver linings.

Merry Christmas, and best wishes to all of you for 2015.