We struggle — first him above me, my two hands held gripped in one of his above my head, then him flipped under me, his hips held down with mine — back and forth, the exertion of muscle an athletic form of foreplay.
He nips. I scratch. We roll, continually changing position, choreographing an elaborate dance in erotic exertion.
Hands roam — first his, a caress; then mine, a smack — while bodies twist, seeking to be on top… Or on bottom…
Only to seek the opposite — to dominate, to submit — seconds later, and again to change position mere moments after that.
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When people think of ‘switching’ in a power-exchange kind of way, they often think it means taking a specific role and sticking to it, either within a ‘scene’ or in total where sexual relations (or full relationship) is concerned. One person is dominant; one person is submissive. And a ‘switch’ means a change of hats, a full-swap taking of turns.
But that’s not what switching is to me.
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He chases me up the stairs, his hand catching the upper inside of my thigh and pulling me back, halting me.
I throw him a look over my shoulder before turning slowly around and – with him two steps below me – staring him eye to eye.
With the cock of a brow, the tables are turned. It is now I who am chasing. But I do not run to chase. I stalk…
He backs up one step at a time as I start down the stairs toward him, the not-touching closeness of our bodies creating a heated, palpable friction between us…
Until, distracted by the electricity of ‘possibility’, he loses focus and I bound away from him with a laugh — running again, two steps at a time — and we are back to the original chase.
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Rather, ^THIS^ is what ‘switching’ is to me.
Or perhaps I should say: This is what switching was to me.
It was fluid. Interchangeable, exchangeable. Gradual, continual.
It was not about winning. It was not about topping. (Or bottoming.) It was not ‘scene’-based. It was not a hat worn. (Or traded.)
Rather than being a fight for control, it was a delight in sharing control. There was fun in the give-and-take, and even though it was playful, it was also a serious expression of erotic appreciation.
But as I said: This is what switching was to me.
When I was switchy.
But honestly — and it’s been like this for quite a while now — I think my ‘switch’ is currently set to OFF.
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