As ideas go, it’s not exactly solid. Not yet.
I mean… It’s past the stage of being ‘nebulous’ but not quite past the ‘more substantial than an amoeba’ point of existence.
In other words: I’m still working it out.
BUT
The general gist is this:
I’m in the middle (in the muddle?) of a LOT of changes in life, all happening very quickly. Partly due to the monumental event that was my husband’s kidney transplant, partly as a result of the ongoing struggle (which is not really a struggle, which makes me feel weird because I feel like it should be somehow; instead, it just IS) of living with a flat-lined libido, partly because of otherwise-insignificant seemingly-incidental things that just seem to keep adding up…
The particulars don’t matter so much as the overall feeling, I guess, which is a combination of un-panicked(?) upheaval and generalized meh.
Because of all that — and some of ‘all that’ is actually quite good, so I’m certainly not complaining, but change can be hard even when it’s welcome — as well as for reasons still a bit unclear to me, I’m experiencing a bit of a block with my writing. Not as in “I have nothing to write about,” but more along the lines of “There are all these things swirling in my head and they would make for beautiful/hilarious/informative/intense/ridiculous blog posts, but I.just.can’t make myself sit down and type.”
But you know what’s working for me right now?
Music.
And so I’m thinking of putting together a project — perhaps memoir-esque? — without a lot of rules (restrictions are just NOT my thing) to it except Write Your Life — for September, based around music and lyrics and… whatnot. Perhaps weaving lyrics like a thread through the tapestry of a memory, or using them as a springboard to discuss a person/place/thing/idea{l}, or simply finding inspiration in a song title, or…
?
Something.
Anyway, I kinda just want to write whatever comes. (Heh. Or whoever comes.)
In a soundtrack-y kind of way.
If that makes sense.
Anywhoo…
As I said before: I’m still working this idea out.
Which is where YOU come in. 😀
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